I don't even know what happened. but I just feel so detached here all of a sudden. weird but true.
I don't get that involved in many threads as before. I prefer lurking these days. I miss us here.

I feel so nostalgic and sad when I come here lately. sometimes I think I can be very insecure and oversensitive.

I miss the good old days, I miss THE people. I can't believe it that writing all this down makes me tear up again. and I don't even know what exactly makes me so sad. I guess I just miss Dave so much! it's probably the youtube syndrome since I can't get access to it for quite a while. or the fact that I can't make it to Manila in May, which is probobly the only chance for me to see him in concert in the next few years!

I just feel I don't belong right now. i can do nothing about it but listen to Creep over and over again, and let tears roll down, on this quiet, dark late night. I hate myself for being like this. but I can't help it right now. it's just...my heart aches and tears come from right there.

Dave, "you float like a feather, in this beautiful world." and I'm so lucky to witness all your greatness. dreamed of you the other day and love you as always.