I am new to this site... but myself as well as my children are huge fans of your music and have been since idol..Permanent is one of all our favs...when I told them about your brother, they were saddened as well as, little as they are.
I feel your pain as I have lost my sister tragically as well. You are an amazing man to celebrate his life and as you say how he didn't want his illness to affect anyone, you didn't let it, instead you still went ahead and did it for him. He is with you always not only in your heart but in spirit watching over you and all your loved ones.